I meant to make regular additions to this page, but I've really felt no news. Things are going smoothly and I didn't really want to jinx that. They say, "No news is good news!" Well, we've got a little bit of news now...we're having a son!
At 20 weeks, I still feel a sense of calm, and probably a bit of denial that I'm really pregnant. It's been such a long journey, filled with so many setbacks that it's hard to believe I've come this far. My last pregnancy became complicated at 22 weeks with a membrane rupture, so my doctor wants me to come in every week now "just to help (me) through the scary part". While a bit inconvenient to take off work so often, it's nice to know how much he understands and will be there for me emotionally as well as medically.
Again, this is all hard to believe. It still feels like a dream I will soon awake from, and things will be like they've always been. I keep trying to imagine myself bringing home a little one, making a place for him in our home, nurturing and guiding him as he grows into the kind of man this world needs more of. It's still hard to believe...
